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Monday, March 26, 2012

One more day with you......

  What a long, emotional week.  My grandfather died this week and it just so happened to be on the same day as my grandmother 4 years ago.  I kept asking why this was happening to me and my family and what was the purpose.  I still have yet to figure it out.  I question whether or not I trully believe in a divine power.  I know one thing....I wish I would have gotten to him sooner. When my grandma passed away I didn't go home to see her. I couldn't bear it.  I was feeling so much pain with her being sick I just could not go and watch her die.  I never got to say goodbye and today I regret it, much like I regret not following my instincts and going when I felt it were right. Now I face the same feeling of regret I did with my grandmother.  My grandparents loved me very dearly and always made sure that I knew it.  Now I can only hold on to the wonderful memories that they have given to me and pray that I never have them taken from me.  Thank You Grandma and Grandpa for providing me with such a wonderful family I am truly greatful for the gifts you have given to me.  Last night I had a crazy dream, a wish was granted just for me.  It could be for anything.  I didn't ask for money or a mansion in malibu. I someday wished for one more day with you.  One more day. One more time.  One more sunset and maybe I would be satisfied.  But then again, I know what it would do.....It would leave me wishing still for one more day with you.  One more day!  First thing I would do is pray for time to stop, I'd unplug the telephone and turn the tv off. I'd hold you every second and say a million "I love You's" Thats what I would do with one more day with you. One more day. One more time. One more sunset and maybe I'd be satisfied. But then again I know what it would do.....It would leave me wishing still for one more day with you!

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